The super moon came by, eclipsed and full at harvest time. Did you feel affected by its energy? Many have written and talked about how these events have affected them. In the articles, the authors wrote about feeling low in energy, physical pain with a gloomy, foggy state of mind. I must admit that I did not experience the negative emotions that many have been sharing about. While waiting for the zap of negativity, I took stock of all that have gone on in my life over the many years I have been in this work. One of the authors shared frustration that with all the work she has done over the years, her healing is still incomplete. I understand her frustration. This is what I hear from the well-accomplished clients who finally end up at my door.
It is bruising to the ego to have worked so hard, only to find out that you are still on a treadmill going nowhere. There seems to be certain expectations for this ascension that people have been talking about for so many years. Ascension is not about feeling that you have made it. When you reach that place, it will not matter to you whether you have ascended or not. Nothing will matter. Not that you have forced this state of being, but you will be freed of your combat with ego and nothing will matter. You will become detached from outcomes.
You will not need to chase rainbows but you will appreciate them. You will not need the world to see or appreciate your accomplishments which are many. You will be in your life, in the world, but the world will not impact your emotional state. Many will call you cold, they will berate your lack of interest in their drama, but you will not feel the need to defend yourself or your motivation. Your primary interest will be to support the emotional and spiritual growth of others. Isn’t that nice?
I have spent most of my working years, supporting and helping others grow out of the limitation and trauma of childhood PTSD. I am coining the residue from childhood trauma, Childhood PTSD. Many of you prefer to think that you are not affected by your formative years, but everyone was and is affected. We were all shaped by the experiences we encountered during and after our birth. This emotional trauma that creates disease of the body – MS, cancer, hypertension, mind – ADHD, depression, OCD, and spirit is unhappy energy turned inward from emotional and mental distress and spiritual confusion. We are searching for the way back home to that tranquil place but are unable to get there because of the busyness in our mind.
There was a place in our childhood where we stopped developing emotionally. When I see a person, I see the child within them at the age they are stuck at. For example the six year old boy whose parents divorced and separated him from his sister. These pivotal time in each of our lives is where we were so shattered by the world that we stopped searching for the light. In that place we decided that the world was not very nice and our gods were not as powerful as we thought they were. This experience follows us to adulthood and our inner child continually brings up the obvious in an attempt to spark us into taking on the role of becoming our own gods. We are running so fast from the pain that we forget that we are running from ourselves. Like Sidhartha, who became the enlightened one, we need to stop and see that the thing we have been searching for was right here all along.
Many seek the ascension slipstream in which to get out of the struggles of the world, but we will not escape if we carry the fear and limitation we are holding to. Let me put it another way. A bee flies around collecting nectar to make honey in its hive. It eats some of that honey and gets honey on its wing, it cannot fly to get more nectar until it cleans the honey off its wing. The honey the bee creates, its food, becomes a detriment. The bee becomes weighted down by the very thing that nourishes its life.
It is important to heal the childhood pain, I mean emotionally heal this pain so that we can more effectively help others. The bee with honey on its wing cannot fly out and show others how to collect nectar until it has freed itself from the honey trap.
I speak clearly. I tell it like it is. This is hard to take for ones who have not figured out how to speak or walk their truth. It is hard to change the world when you struggle with the emotional story that debilitates you. I am not saying that I don’t have struggles. But I use these struggles to really understand my inner child and to hear what she is trying to say. Because I am listening to my own inner story, I am opened to the stories and emotional struggles of others. I feel keenly. I feel your physical and emotional pain. This is how I know when you are walking your talk and communicating kindly with yourself.